hi i haven’t been updating this space. i am getting very lazy, especially since i started work. now that i’m here i don’t know really what to blog about! and to think i used to blog so often in the past. haha, maybe it’s because i’m getting older. if its of any relevance.
its 4.17am and i still can’t sleep cause i’m rather disturbed by the rabbit-man from this movie i watched with russell and ryan today. the image of that stupid rabbit-man keeps appearing in my head especially after russell kept imitating its voice to scare me): its so freaky i hate it! and its really retarded cause i usually don’t feel scared after watching scary shows, but this show isn’t a scary show! so now i can’t sleep cause i’ll get nightmares. annnnoying.
anyway i don’t know if its just me but i really think my boobs are shrinking ever since i lost weight. i manage to lose some weight since the end of As but i still have a huge ass. if only i can move the fats from my thighs and ass to my boobs my body will be quite perfect. soooo saaaaad. i guess i just have to accept the fact that i’m born with a huge ass and i can’t do anything about it. and i have to learn to convince myself that skinny girls are disgusting cause i can’t be one.
okay, moving on.. work’s been boring. fun sometimes, when i get nice or funny customers or when i get to talk to the other promoters. i think i’m quite racist. i can’t stand some i*****s. they are so fucking stingy! eg, one of them kept demanding for the free baileys bag which you can only get if you buy 2 bottles, kept asking me if i could sell him the set of 2 small bottles since you can only keep the drink for 6 months after opening. like seriously dude wtfffffff how long do you want to keep a bottle of drink for? and when i told him i can’t sell it to him so many times he demanded to see the manager all. grrrr. annoying.
and lastly, I AM GOING TO THE US OF A NEXT MONTH! FOR 10 DAYS! MY BROTHER TOLD ME THERES A WHOLE FUCKING LOT OF FACTORY OUTLETS. AM GOING TO SHOP LIKE A MAD BITCH. HAHAHAHHAHA
we celebrated vera’s birthday last night at timbre. everything was nice and simple, nothing too fancy. good food good company and nice music! i shall post all my pictures soon (all the way from jan) when i’m not so lazy, haha.
i saw this top i really really really x100000000000000000 like at topshop today but as you all know, i’ve been very broke for the past few days. so… too bad for me! by the time i get my pay from my rather high paying job, the top with be gone. my dad’s been giving me very little money now since i am working. but i haven’t gotten my pay yet!!!!!
and lastly, i can’t stop worrying about getting back my results on friday! i keep having so many bad dreams.. last night, i dreamt that i got straight Ds. and every dream i had about it isnt a good one. i spoke to my mum this afternoon about the whole results thing, and she told me if i can do well enough to go to a local uni then good for me and she’ll buy me a car and a chanel bag (wtf!). but if i don’t do well she told me to consider other options like going to the states or to australia. i really don’t like the idea of going overseas alone! i can’t even look after myself in singapore, how am i gonna survive alone?
i keep thinking how i did for each individual paper trying to predict what kinda grades i’ll get but the more i think the more paranoid and worried i get. i’m trying to convince myself not to expect too much out of it since i didn’t put in my best effort but it clearly isn’t working cause i know if i get something like a combinations of Cs and Ds i’ll just cry and look like pathetic. i’ve been checking out the NUS FASS website, trying to find out which courses i won’t mind going to. i just hope they won’t consider the math grade. okay i should stop ranting, makes me feel worse.
today in the airport mi bought from M.A.C 1 new brown pencil eyeliner, 1 glittery sliver liquid eyeliner, 2 lipglass, 1 blusher, 1 undereye illuminator and 1 fafi 1 eyeshadow and mi got 30% off! hehehe
its confirmed! results are coming out this friday! im so scared and i have totally no confidence in myself at all and this is absolutely nothing compared to how i felt when i collected the Olevel results, cause i knew no matter what i could have still made it to a jc or poly. but this is different! i either do well enough to get into uni or do badly and end up with no qualifications, end up with a lousy job, lousy future, lousy everything. shit man i hate dealing with failure.
ive been trying to think of whats the worse possible case senario that can ever happen. it’ll probably be like DDD. i have very low expectations for myself. i just hope i do well enough to make it to FASS. goodnight everyone, and all the best to those collecting their results as well!
so, first day of work wasn’t too bad, which is considered quite good already for my kinda standard. haha! all i do is to stand at my bar counter, smile, serve baileys in plastic cups, refill the tray, and chit chat with the other promoters. also, i occasionally pop ice cubes in my mouth, drink some baileys and johnny walker, clean the bottles, walk around, help some passengers with directions, look out for cute angmoh guys, and go to the bombay sapphire counter to get the guy to make me free cocktails. hahahahahahahahahaha
and i do all these for 10 bucks an hour! and actually even more since we get 1 hour break during our shift so technically they pay us 10 bucks to eat! HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA
the only thing i hate is all those ____ who are so damn cheapo and just free load off the free drinks and they smell so bad, like rotting curry. urgh!!! and also i realise how bad my chinese is, i can’t hold a proper conversation with a china man to save my life. i need to find out what is ‘chocolate mint’ and ‘creme caramel’ in chinese. other than that everything else is fine and i can’t wait to go to work again. life would be quite good now if not for my alevel results.
okay. THE END.
i really can’t wait for sunday to come cause i’ve been missing you so very much and i can’t wait to see you again..
fiiiiiiinalllllllllyyyyyyy
February 26, 2008
i am starting work on the 1st of march after a super long wait! confirmed this time, the roster is already out.finally, after 3 whole months of lazing around being good for nothing. and i’m earning 1.8k a month! the first job ever in my life! hahahahahhahahaah
well so far life’s been very good and i’m more than happy. BUT The results are coming out very soon. scary! i don’t have a good feeling about it):
in the mean time, no use worrying.. so its still time to party! (when you can) tomorrow night is wednesday night=mel’s birthday+ ladies night! wooooo hooooooooo
happy birthday mel! i love you! we’re gonna have a great time tomorrow night!
today i was out in town with vera. i ate so much food but i’m still hungry now! first i had some fusion pasta at black canyon in the afternoon, then in town i ate a whole basket of chicken wings and fries, had gelato while walking to far east and i had chippys at far east. HAHAHA i am a PIG
okay pointless entry. goodbye!
WHY IS THE WHOLE WORLD TALKING IN GOSSIP GIRL LINGO!?!??
IT IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING
FUCK YOU IF YOU’RE ONE OF THEM
NOT COOOOOL
4.19am and i’m still awake. can’t sleep since i slept for about 20 hours since yesterday. i slept at 10pm, woke up at 6pm! haha. i’ve been going to al ameen almost everyday now wasting my money. yesterday i went to the zouk flea market with claire, najid and john cause her friend jill was selling stuff. haha it was really crowded but we had fun bargaining and picking out random things. we found a reallllllly cute tshirt with a furry animal in front. the fabric was so nice! it was only 2 bucks so we bought it! claire found a nice frilly skirt. i asked the guy 3 times to make sure the skirt was 2 bucks as well. lol. and i got a nice dress from jill. then we left in a cabbie, picked shona up and went to claire’s house for her grandma’s birthday celebration. ate a lot of food. i’ve lost weight, about 5 kg since last year. and i’ve been eating a lot lately. my body is very strange.
and i sorta have tuesday and wednesday planned out already. for tomorrow, my mum is dragging me to a chinese doctor to do that painful needle thing (what is it called?) on my leg cause its not fully healed. and then i’m going to chinswee road (where the hell is that) for my airport training. speaking of which, i’m so fucking annoyed with my supervisor i want to strangle her. its been more than 3 weeks! she did not tell us when exactly we’re gonna start work, and all she said was that it’ll take longer to process our stupid airport transit passes cause of CNY and blah blah blah. and later in the evening i have driving lessons and after that al ameen for dinner.
wednesday, meeting lania vera etc for lunch or dinner, mahjong, and then its either mambo or ladies’ night with claire, shona etc. i hope i don’t waste a lot of money. and russell will be coming back on wednesday. i miss him so much right now i feel like dying cause i haven’t spoken to him for 4 days. i am very upset about it. okay bye.
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